Confusion at an end?? broken heart

July 15, 2008 jolovely87
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Its finally offcial, the guy Ive i thought i was talking to finally called it quits. It is my own fault that i am left hurt, i should have listened to my friends and family. Yes we only been talking for 5 months and he told me he wasnt ready for a realtionship, but i thought wuth some time our relationship could grow and he would realize that it could be something great. All i have been nice to this guy and i treated him like he was my boo, i never played him or was messing wih others guys. I truly liked this guy and i was willing to try to make it work. But i guess you cant force anyone to do anything they dont want to do. He broke it off after me continuly asking him what he felt and what was going on with him..

He said the reason was because i am too sneaky and that i am way too different. Yes he brought it to my attention that he thought i was sneaky and i told him that i dont mean to be that way, i have never cheated or did anything wrong to him, i guess it also seems like im sneaky because the town that we’re currently in i dont have any real friends so i usually stick to myself and i have one homeboy that i hang with from time to time, and that guy has been a true friend nothing more, almost like a big brother and i told my guy that. i know i am a great gurl, everyone that i have ever been with, still actaully wants to be with me, i tried so hard to show this guy that im fo real and im just being me. I feel like he tries so hard to find the bad in me, but the truth is he is just not that into me, but if he wasnt why couldnt he just been break it off, i gave him several chances, and he told he would never just keep me to just have sex, but thats what he did. he strang me along and wasted my time. He said i was too different.. umm why would i want to be like everyone else, i feel like he never had anyone that treated him the way i did. all my friends say its his loss, and it truly is and i feel the same way, but i cannot help feeling hurt and used and played. Men dont know what they want. Now im finally happy it is over now i can stop stressing about how he feels and being confused… life goes on and im still young. I know i will find the right person someday…

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